It's not a lie that I watch Sex and the City as MUCH as I possibly can. I watch it because I absolutely love it and I learn a lot about myself as well as my own perceptions about relationships. I think it's important that we explore different facets about relationships and ask questions of what is important.
Before my friend Charissa lent me all of the seasons I watched the show religiously on the CW (or the WB, whatever I don't know anymore). I realize now that I watch the full episodes in sequential order, or individual DVDs I know the whole story. The CW just shows the episodes with Carrie in a significant relationship (Big, Burger, the Jazz guy, the Russian) and yet you never see the in-between. Those moments where Carrie is not in a relationship. Those moments, in my opinion, are very important. It's important to know and understand how we feel in the in-between.
These are the moments that I am in. The in-between. Granted it has been about three years (gulp...) since my last relationship. I can't say that it has been easy since I move at the same speed as every new trend and that I might not be the simple, sweet, docile, girl so many men presume to want. I am grateful for the time off...I think. Don't get me wrong there are some days when that's all I have on my mind (like yesterday), but overall my work has become stronger and I am understanding who I am and what I want.
What I want is still TBA. I am still figuring that out. I am more stable than the past. I know where I want to head and if you are willing to travel there with me and I with you, that will make me happy. I don't need (nor desire) to get married tomorrow. I don't need to even be swept off my feet. I can honestly say that that stuff (and yes it's stuff) doesn't get me excited. I need something sensible. Even in my space where I am far from sensible.
So yes, the in-between...