Thursday, January 31, 2008

These faces are for you.

Having a New Years resolution like Simple Pleasures has been one of the best decisions I have made for myself in quite some time. It has helped me to take life one day at a time. Not looking at SUCH the big picture that I loose focus on what has happened in the here and now. I like that life seems to play itself out that way. I am trying to look at the moment rather than all of the would-have, should-haves, and could haven been. This is really hard but the beauty of these moments are more intense than I would have ever realized before this.

I like that life can be unpredictable and I love the random moments that share grace upon me.

I am slowly putting my guard down which allows the fears to escape me. To untie themselves from the caverns of my heart and my mind. I am letting myself get to a space where vulnerability is not such a bad word or a bad emotion. I think life is meant to be lived. I feel lucky that my life has been eventful. I don't wish half of these events on anyone because the beauty has to filtered with experiencing pain. The pain is obviously necessary for without it we would never really sense the full scope of what is really beautiful.

I feel like i lived my life today with simple wonder, without fear, without all those what-ifs that tie you down and suffocate you. I am doing things for me. I am the only one that can do that. All I can say is that I am grateful for the people I have in my life. It is not limited to today but all of these people who have made my life better.

I read this quote the other day from Miranda July and have tried to live out this thought as a practice:

Do you have doubts about life? Are you unsure if it is worth the trouble? Look at the sky: that is for you. Look at each person's face as you pass on the street: those faces are for you. And the street itself, and the ground under the street, and the ball of fire underneath the ground: all these things are for you. They are as much for you as they are for other people. Remember this when you wake up in the morning and think you have nothing. Stand up and face the east. Now praise the sky and praise the light within each person under the sky. It's okay to be unsure. But praise, praise, praise.

I think I will continue to practice this.

2 comments:

Dave and Betsy: said...

You really speak to my heart Amy. I truly enjoy your beautiful writing...it is moving. I feel lucky to have known you this far and learn so much from you. I loved these last two blogs, and I enjoy catching up on the past ones. Can't wait to see you!!

Bets

Tricia said...

I miss you more and more when I read the beautiful thoughts that you have. I love you!